I know it's hard but it's important not to rush things. God has a plan and he will take care of you. All you have to do is pray and wait.
22 Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail.
23 They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.
25 "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?
with all my heart I have sought you;
Do not let me wander from Your commandments.
Your word I have treasured in my heart,
That I may not sin against You.
...Teach me, O Lord, the way of Your statutes,
And I shall observe it to the end.
Be strong for someone who is not as strong as you. There is someone who sees your strength and draws from it. Stand firm. You are doing a great job. Remember the beautiful strong woman that you are and live. You never know who is watching.
We must humble ourselves before Him so He can lift us up. It is difficult to ask for help as a strong woman. We must ask God for help so He can help us. It's okay to lean on Him. Let go of your burden and let Him take it from you.